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Baby,

You were the first guy I have been friends with in my college life. I never was into male friendships—specifically because I am afraid I might be discriminated by the “macho” stereotype of men in this patriarchal society. I didn't make many male friends in my high school days because the guys thought being friends with gay would make them gay as well. You know, their egos are bigger than their balls most, if not, all the time.

But you were there and you had the courage to befriend me. At first I was hesitant because I felt so awkward being your companion, and I was afraid this would go nowhere. But you stood by me through my ups and downs, and you were there in my victories and defeats. Thank you for that.

At this moment, four years have passed, and I am very happy that you've been a better version of yourself. I've seen you in your worse, and now I’m seeing you in good shape (although, not physically) and I am very confident you would unleash your full potential at the right time which is very soon.

And now I’m going to be honest with you. I love you from the very first time we knew each other and it pains me a lot to see you broken and shattered. It pains me more to see you committing the same mistakes over and over again, as if you never learned from your experiences. But maybe you thought life is a series of chances and I’m seeing life without Plan Bs, and that’s where the knot seems to loose.

I love you and there is no point of hiding it now, and I love you even if you don’t love me back. My love for you is the kind of love that is more concerned about you rather than us, and I know it sounds too good to be true, but that’s how I am feeling it in my heart.

And now we’ll be separated more than we were separated in college, and I am not sure where your path is heading, and I am not sure if our lives will ever cross again, but I know one thing for sure: I will always be here for you because you were there for me. You’re one of the best guys I have ever met in my life. I love you.

And I am wishing you happiness,

Baby.